*EMOTIONS*

Lying here immersed in thoughts of my own
Just me, my tears and sense of disbelief that I own
I race to the past and my heart refuses to believe what I hear
Reality bites but I sill want you by my side right here
Change is inevitable but I never related it with you
I'm so blank and expressionless, you have no clue
There was nothing in the world that I trusted more than you
Now Im scared to face the world and Im wondering what to do
Everything seems to change so fast
i wish I could turn back become a kid with no worries that last
Im still in state of disbelief blaming everyone but you
Calling the world mean when what really broke my heart was you
I stare into open space and tears roll down my eyes
More than the reason the feeling of you involved is high
I still cannot relate to you doing such a thing
Hoping it to be a bad dream and waking up before it could sink
I know that I could never define what we shared
But I always thought about our future you cared
No doubts we were going through a tough patch
Fights, arguments and quite a number of times I remember calling you trash
But circumstances were never great to express my feelings
Things changed so quick to even acknowledge what was happening
I always hoped you would understand this was meant to be forever
But after every misunderstanding you always felt 'we' were for never
Clinging on to the belief that it would not work for good
Making no effort ever to get me back even if you could
Sometimes I just wish you called and sort things
Sometimes I still wish knowing completely well that you would not do a thing
Im overshadowed by a zillion emotions
Yet I just want to make sure you get through this portion
Noone knows what the future beholds
Just hoping that each of us learn to forgive as time rolls !

15.11.2007